Anger expressed in a healthy way is my defense mechanism to keep going on with life. Email me and jen4032w-at-gmail.com I hope to hear back from you and hang in there. Thank you. They lied. Can determine what's best for you and your family. Im so tired of people asking why arent you ever happy. But Jesus knows that we are weak and He knows that you still loved your children. I feel like Im going to have a nervous break down Im barely hanging on. I hope your still alive and ok!! : ). But what I dont understand is that multiple family members had tried to gain custody when I lost them and the cps worker never returned phone calls. Please email me i could use any tips and i could also use a friend right now bedwellopal-at-gmail.com, Did you receive my email? I have been on almost every antidepressant out there and I can say these are the best. Im so sorry. There are different types of depression. Work with your court appointed lawyer and case worker. We may have fallen into the trap but we can get out of the trap and learn from the terror weve been through. I cannot even write for this website unless I get enough sleep the night before. I know I am not the only one who has unfairly had their child taken, but I feel like I am completely alone. ive lost my kids my home everything when i stepped into treatment. I agree a HUndred percent my kIds were taken because they witness me and there father arguing .. I wasnt a perfect parent, but I wasnt a bad one either. Several theories have been put forward to explain this reaction, and they described seven stages of grief. We were, as a family serving God when the State legally kidnapped my children by lying and twisting and exaggerating the truth until it was unrecognizable. I caught so many illegal things they did in my case I wanted to go public. I will pray for you. Im feeling your pain! My kids have begged the caseworker to come home and she says they ignore her. I think of my kids everyday. In an article published by the California Cognitive Behavioral Institute, Kathie Mathis, Psy.D described the common signs of emotional . Plans can sometimes be messy in the beginning in order to create a desirable effect in the end. My husband & I did everything the court asked of me & still they took my kids. If I could tell anyone a word of adviceDOCUMENT DOCUMENT DOCUMENT!!! Any other suggestions? Sam, sorry to hear they wont let your son testify. I can see you have tons of info and have been kind to dedicate to showing the info you know. We were ecstatic when I found out I had in fact become pregnant. Common grief reactions include: Shock, disbelief, or denial Anxiety Distress Anger Periods of sadness Loss of sleep and loss of appetite NY would not take the TN medical insurance. I live in the Colorado springs area. You might not be able to sleep, eat, or think straight. He will want to know you. Consider including her baby pictures and photos of other family members. TIME TO PROVE MYSELF.. A 2008 study found that even 18 years after losing a child, bereaved parents reported "more depressive symptoms, poorer well-being, and more health problems and were more likely to have experienced a depressive episode and marital disruption." While some parents did improve, "recovery from grief was unrelated to the Some kind of belief system will help you find meaning in all this mess. Is there any way to speak with you over the phone? What can I do to motivate this case worker to reunite us all faster. I live in Arkansas and three of my kids got taken away from me over my ex husband beating on me all the time, and put me in the icu One over my little boys at the age of 9 yrs asked me MOMMY can I ask u something and dont lie. So God could give and he could easily take. After over a year of my a busive ex had an order of protection for a year but had the money to file a motion almost every week with crazy lies, snazzy attorney while no child support being temporarily ordered while I took care of all their needs. Are able to sympathize with your situation, Have experience handling similar cases and situations, and. People need to stick together and expose this corruption. And we grandparents and other family members separated from the babies as well go through situational depression. It is terrible and nearly unbearable, but we have to get through it. I find myself in depression mode at times even when I think Im ok. I hit a rough patch in my life and lost everything. This past March I was assaulted once again by my ex. Though you may feel alone, there are other parents out there who have been through this. My daughter has been sentenced to life with my ex and his child molesting roommate to be around their drug use and other abuse, while Im barred from seeing or talking to my own child for no reason. God gave you inalienable rights, not the state, feds or your DHHS. I live in Ventura, Ca! Seek out support groups and support systems from family and friends. I think back to my relationship with my mother and I think of my favorite memories and they are not the ones that happened before I was 18. With all that going on, once they took my kids, I drove myself off the cliff spiritually. I have no money or strength left to fight! They want me to go to rehab. And now their psychological evaluator has wrote a really bad report on me (it wouldve only been worse if she accused be of being Jeffery Dahmer!) LGBTQ. It has now been 2 years and I was appointed a respite care giver to the other grandparents who were going to take guardianship. You have got }, { You probably won't find many people who sympathize with people who work in this industry. You can go to most churches and ask to talk to the minister. To learn more about how these cases work, please contact the Law Office of Ben Carrasco, PLLC. This is usually due to the circumstances of the loss of someone. honey before bed for weight loss; fondation cartier tickets; incharge debt solutions; liberation of german pow camps; aldo clear heels with rhinestones. Your children ARE not alone. My husband and i have been fighting to get our beautiful daughter back for over two years. Share your pain. No faith, No hope. My boys wont talk to me or acknowledge me. Thats a huge advantage. He came out on top. There is no reason to believe that the parents of Daniel, Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego did anything to deserve having their children taken to Babylon. And before them females and before them our dark skinned extended family. I have also considered checking out. My son was in prison and the mother was in a sober living house out of Hendersonville. I had no money to go to the court in L.A. and did not go to the court hearing. Probably the last thing hed want to learn is that his dad gave up and ended his life before a relationship was even possible. We started over and had a happy amazing life. And because of my certainty that I couldnt have children I was sexually active despite my current dependence on a drug. I have not, and will not stand down from these bullies, though. There are different types of depression. Listen, my depressed friends, this is not the thing to do when your family is attacked by CPS. They dont like me and wont return my calls. CPS sided with her, stating she made a bad choice. Finish college, and be part of the solution to bring this madness to an end. I could never find the strength to Erin her off my breast completely because I have felt the agony of opiate withdrawal and as her mother the thought of her having to endure that nearly killed me. There are many thousands of families that have been through this. Depression is normal for anyone going through CPS hell. Call me at eight 1 six 6 four 5 four 1 five 2. Do not write anything on there that would be potentially embarrassing to them as teenagers and young adults are particularly sensitive to that. In the end you will be blessed exceedingly well. I went to a pyshc ward to get off heroin and back on my bi polar meds. And I leave till the friday of next week. They knew I was high risk prego. Another good one is Zoloft. It is so much better for them to be with your mom rather than in an adoption out to strangers. I actually heard the DSS attorney tell the foster workers in regards to another case, be careful what you say to her, just tell her she can get her daughter back but then when she is comfortable we will take the her again. My grief and anger has nowhere to go. They gave me a year. I am a very devout Christian but I sometimes wonder why God had allowed this curse to come upon me and my children! Hello Amanda, Ive lived in both Modesto and Pittsburg, BTW good luck to you! You could start worrying about the child, their future, your future with them, the legal battles would also have been an added source of stress. document.getElementById( "ak_js_1" ).setAttribute( "value", ( new Date() ).getTime() ); This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. These classes can also help you take better care of yourself through the loss. I do not have my kids back. We must become unified and change laws, start class action suits against states and DHHS in each state. If you want feedback and support from other parents, we have options: Fight CPS Message Board Forum . We served God and the community too. It may be expensive but this is your ONE opportunity to turn things around if it gets to the point where theyre doing a TPR hearing. cps in bucyrus Ohio is very dishonest. 3.) But still I have no more friends. A woman with hollow eyes approached us and handed out a flier. My heart is totally broken. How pathetic, it made me hurt to see my children becoming angry with me because yet again I was denying them when their parents were the good parents because they allowed my children everything. And the state is telling me that my daughter will not be reunited with me as long as Im there because its not considered stable housing. Orozco, I will pray for you and your family. Start looking for one now, who will give testimony that youre not likely to get that depressed again. This is my third time involved with dcs. Nothing is yours. Grieving this loss is an individualized process that can be captured in poetry about losing a child. Mothers with a child taken into care had significantly greater ARR of depression (ARR = 1.90; 95% CI, 1.82 to 1.98), anxiety (ARR = 2.51; 95% CI, 2.40 to 2.63), substance use (ARR = 8. . Thorannaslayer, what a sad testimony. Still, depression could affect your parental rights, so its important to discuss your situation with a knowledgeable Austin child custody attorney. The constitution says you cannot terminate due to a disability. Blanca, I dont know what will happen with your son but keep this in mind. Shortly after news broke via The Sun on Tuesday . . Im going through a similar thing now because someone was a trigger happy dss caller (although I believe her goal WAS for me to lose my kids bc she also called the actual police with horrendous accusations). I know its hard & those holidays are the worst. Then my battle will be with the family law court i just hope my son is strong enough to keep himself alive will i find a way to safe my best friend who i have no contact with or even seen i miss him dearly ever since november 24th 2012 brutality assaulted by mom and stepdad. Believe me, I know I had 2 children taken by my ex without giving me a fair chance to be a parent to them. I have to think that theyll soon be 18 and able to make their own decisions!! Now my cousin has my only daughter and I am scared of the future.. how can parents who are also addicts be expected to get clean when their reason for living, smiling, trying has been ripped out of their lives? This post would have been helpful if I wasnt atheist. God gives each of us on this earth a free will. You can still have grandbabies. It worked, we were so prepared, so knowledgeable of our rights, so ready to kick their butts and we won. I hope this helps each and every one of you! Forgetting I was an alcoholic. I am getting more and more mad at them as days go by. I have a (what i want to call) a strong relationship with God, and I MUST have faith that God will reunite us one day!! Just love that one child if it is the only one you can have in your home right now. I need help. Ive been to 3 different ones and finally i got the paper work I need for my Dcfs case. Call me at three six zero 480 five one one four. I was honest! this pain guilt and empty feeling is stifling what do i do? (What are they going to do?Accuse me of trying to fight for my legal rights?). I am basically left in limbo fishing to find out what is going on as no one is returning phone calls or text (case worker) or (supervisor). I hope to hear from you soon!! One factor that you may not have considered is depression and child custody. No matter what. My mom hurt me very deeply. It hurts. Whether a child, parent, spouse, or furry companion, poetry has the uncanny ability to take one back to the momentback to the place a heart needs to feel. He and my other 3 children were taken from me and my husband almost a year ago. I sent one out this morning. I lost my 11 by year old son almost 5 years ago. TX Im hanging on by a tiny thread. I only see them for two hours a week. . suicidal thoughts or plans. You might have lost your child because of your separation or divorce from your spouse, or it could be because of other issues that have deemed you an unfit parent. These poems for grieving parents and other close family members and friends speak to feelings of anger, sadness, grief, despair, and even acceptance. If there is no criminal activity, the children should not be removed. I hired another lawyer to help me go back to court after filing a frurd an destress on my case. When I saw that Childrens Division blatantly broke every one of their own laws, regulations, and rules, while criticizing me for every imagined infraction of their perception of perfection, I started climbing the ladder. But maybe its for myself or them I dont know but i stay. But now its happening to my grandkids cause parents dont demand real solutions. Hi.I am in need desperately of your help with CPS. Im walking away from mine. Everyone i cared for disappeared after cps got involved with me. I have been contemplating suicide for several days, even going to the point of holding the pills in my hand and writing out instructions on what to do with my body. Comb their hair and yell at them to go brush their teeth. Ive been fighting so hard and for so long that Im tired. If your kids are in the system at least the case is still open and they should work with you on reunification. So did the guilt. This has to be stopped! I had a plan. Do not let them destroy our kids. We lost. If you are alive, God has a plan for you. I have read the last chapter, I know who wins, and I know which side I am on. A loss is tragic at any age, but the sense of unfairness of a life . I believe all parental authority over the child totally ends at age 1`8, It can in some circumstances be younger, if the child petitions the court to be emancipated!! Hopefully one day in my lifetime I will see this broken system crumble! God gave me a promise in Jeremiah 31:15 17: This is what the Lord says: A cry is heard in Ramahdeep anguish and bitter weeping. Divorce. Losing your faith is no justification for any suffering or struggles in life. I really need help. Hang in there!! Im traumatized so bad just like my kids. 5). Im still waiting on my two other babies but that will take probably another year or two wen theyre 18. And it does not seem fair that they prevented me from returning home where we were loved and could have a quality life and held me captive in a strange state where I have nothing or nobody Im praying for US all. I said no because my son was still on drugs. Ive never heard of judges letting teenagers testify about where they want to live, in CPS cases. Pray every day that they receive him as Saviour, if they have not already (none of us know anothers heart, so keep praying), and be sure that you are saved. Elaine, Im glad you found the comforter and healer of broken hearts. mind you this happened a month and 10 days after my oldest was ripped away from me. Also, dont do this to say goodbye. She will always be within me to keep going. but key word is almost. It always makes a huge difference for your outlook on life. Im so depressed lost and confused at how CPS did things and just how much they get away withMy family and I was violated and our constitutional rights tossed in the garbage and there was nothing I could doI really need help in this battle..My kids are being harmed in the worse way possible emotionally and minimally by being taken from the only ones they know only by an allegation.never knew cussing could be domestic violence. The Bible says for now we see through a glass darkly. 1 Corinthians 13:12. I also requested CPS to be involved to investigate the claims this woman had made. When my child was taken by CPS at birth, over 20 years ago, I was extremely depressed. I was told to just do what is asked of me by working and completing the services asked of me. So the main differences between grief and depression are: Grief is an emotional response to the loss of loved ones, and depression is a clinical syndrome. Too many people get to judge me when they are worse parents than Ive ever been and I just feel very alone. I will always be love her. depression after losing custody of childhyatt place chicago medical/university district. Leave a message there if you need too. The most effective defense I have found for making CPS go away is an immediate cell phone call to a first-rate CPS defense lawyer while standing on my front porch with the door closed and latched behind me. That was long ago (dark ages I guess) in the early 1980s. Theres no domestic violence at all tho. Mothers who have lost the custody of their children are also seen to have a higher risk of anxiety and depression, and substance use. She monitors everything i say. This is history people Cps and the government are out of control. There is a complete evaluation that comprises financial, emotional, and physical considerations.Mental illness can cause the court to label a parent unequipped and result in lost custody privileges. But to be an older person when an. The school called me telling me they lost her isnt it normal to call police? Im sorry, I dont have any good advice for the return of children who have been adopted. Do not be like those people who committed suicide. You are not alone and there is always help. Roxanna, I feel your pain. It is advisable that you meet with a physician to help you figure out what is wrong, they can direct you to various mental health professionals. Might as well try. If youre experiencing depression, youre probably well aware of how it affects your life. Because of Monica, we were spared the stress and money of further legal proceedings and were able to walk away with our dignity intact., Click Here to Contact Our Divorce Team Today. Your hurting because like me you care. That is what keeps me going. Im ever closer to the end. I went to court today for a continuing restraining order which was denied. I wanted to die when they took her from me. I turned every sad feeling I felt into motivation to get my kids back and prove they should not have been taken in the first place. And I mean everything but the clothes on my back. Children are being handed over to these men while the moms life falls apart. It is well-known that exercise helps to alleviate depression. Be the best you can be. None of the information on this website is intended to be legal advice. I have read the last chapter. We must not just stay alone and lost in our pain. Its a test god is placing these children in adoption parents arms they are not allowed to steal the child because somebody in authority takes it back off them for being cheeky and greedy, I feel the same my family was ripped apart it hurts so bad to dream of your kids and wake up and u cant touch them. I search the internet for new ideas of things to add to their trunks. It is key to be able to have someone that is fighting for you while you are fighting for your kids. Make sure you study your states social services regulatory laws and also be aware of your civil rights. I know that God has not given up on me, no matter what wrong choices I made, and we have all made less than the best choice at one time or another. Even my lawyer said, as long as they follow the law we will win. Thank you for this.. Denelle a word of hope for others going through the pain. I cannot live life without them. God Bless You! Equipping yourself with these skills can help you build a healthy relationship between you and your child. I hate cps. This will pass. NOOOO! Also-now there is another rx pill-called a mood stabilizer that helps with the depression. Educate yourself to understand parenting in the context od divorce, Ensure that the stress does not get ot the child. It is hard for me to do this. One of the symptoms of depression is suicidal ideation. They were not even present when it happened. They took my babies 11 and 3 because my boyfriend was accused of a crime against a child, which I dont believe! I dont know how much longer I can take this. i was honest of my relapse and just from telling the social worker that i was an at home mom who relapsed and seeking help?she called cps?went to my house where my ex was caring for them till i got out?my two oldest children not his blood. Even if your son stays with his mom, he will be thinking about you. Accept what has happened-I dont mean to agree with what has happened-just accept that it did happen. And as far as news they just showed up. Your children will come back to you from the distant land of the enemy. People who have lost a child have stronger grief reactions. Im so lost in my own feelings & I feel my heart will never heel. I can tell you that our Case Manager was fired. What more could DCFS want in a stable living environment? If I fail then Ill be in prison for kidnapping one day and if Im not itll be because Im the best fugitive possible. My addiction is not her weight to bear and I refuse to ever let her little lips have to tell someone that she doesnt remember her real mother because she was only 2 yrs old when her mom died of a heroin overdose. Than another knock, I was informed that due to an past history of drug use, domestic abuse, married to a felon, and un healed psychological stress issues, grief, and no job or reliable transportation. My son has showed up to visitation many times with marks and they have an excuse everytime. How can you show that? Holidays, birthdays and other events can spark grief even years after a loss. I got only short uncaring text messages from the foster worker. First name only. Molly B. Kenny's Bellevue family law office is conveniently located in Bellevue just off I-90, making it easily accessible to those in the greater Seattle area. She was 3 1/2 years old, yesterday she turned 6, and I havent seen her in over a year. The far away future. Im not sure. Dallas, Is there anything I can do to avoid turning my son in? But soon after the mother began allowing their male child identified in legal documents as "L." to . The reason why you feel lost is because your identity as a mother is being shaken now that you are without your kids. She brought another worker with her to get our grandson who was nice but we were hysterical. If you find y How do I or even my daughters step mom get them back together? And as for the others, if they are with your mom, thats better than in foster care. How Mental Illness Can Impact Child Custody Cases involving a parent with a mental illness are notoriously tricky. They like to terminate parental rights and adopt the children out. You can trust a lawyer to advocate on your behalf and seek the best possible outcome. So the next time your feeling sad and depressed, let it turn you into the savage beast you need to be to get your kids back. Shes now 35 and hasnt spoken to me in about 18 years. Ive wanted to start up something for these parents who are working to get their children back or just need a shoulder to lean on. It has been a month and a half now. BUT I do agree I have a lot on me and I am not fighting anymore. For the last 3 yrs I have been so lost. She has been practicing family law since 1994. My life just didnt go in that direction. I trusted them. That hurts trust me, I know. I have a broken phone reading up on all this and I am so lost. You see I used to write. Child custody, access and parental responsibility: The search for a just and equitable standard. Jesus said, My kingdom is not of this world. Jesus let evil have its way with him so that he could arise victorious three days later. Surrender yourself to him leave all your problems in his hands and trust in him. I hope you are using this opportunity for career development. Not sure what to do to fill the void and I miss my husband and children too. The two older girls are in two seperate homes. Resources and divorce support, for issues related to child custody, legal separation, lawyers, alimony, child support, and family law. Long story short I have been the only constant in my grandchilds life. Many of us have little or no money; those who have money, spend it all trying to fight their own battles before realizing that this is a world-wide epidemic. Im so sorry this happened to you. The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit. Psalm 34:18. But I only had one and had to give her for adoption. My granddaughter told me that her foster dad was putting a pillow over her face in her bed I reported this as advised by a child advocacy group to report it to the state police in the foster familys county . It seems cps gets involved with the dumbest things and everyone seems to get their children taken away here no matter what the situation is. Since she was stolen my hair is turning gray and Ive had many health issues.all due to stress. Your children will come again to their own land. A stable home, happy and loving. My son is very angery with me. You have to do it by force. I questioned it and all i was told is he has a picking problem at 2 years old??? i recently relapsed and i want to go back treatment immediately but im afraid will hurt my case. You enjoyed being a parent your love for your babies show since you openly expose the hurt your in. The first days of dealing with the death of a child are very difficult. Lawyers are paid by the state and dont do anything. Cps had allowed us six great visits worth the kids and the kids run up to me and their step mom with huge smiles and they keep asking when they can come back to my place.. Cps is keeping the kids away for no reason. financial distress form california. The courts say Ill Never get my kids back. By. I would love to introduce you to the Judge before whom every knee will bow. It is temporary!! Then they terminated our rights. You may feel guilt and shame over your addiction. I was lucky and had a great guy who told me like it was and didnt sugar coat anything. Grief is an emotional reaction to the loss of loved ones, which usually manifests itself in sadness and crying. God has a plan in all of this! I havent seen them since 2009. I am in the thick of it right now, where are you now with your case a year later? I lost everything but the clothes on my back. We do yell but rarely. It all started because a school lost my autistic daughter for hours and I called police against schools wishes. they the foster worker- said I could write him letters. 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